Monday, 21 November 2011

I want to write  a book. (in Eng, of course!) - wish me luck! 

Love has united us for too long

No one is from anyone, I know that. I didn’t want you to be mine. I just wanted you to share. I just needed to share so many things. But I can’t, because we would be extremely mad at each other. I just want you to trust me, and me to trust you.
I’ve been trying for everything or anything. I’d made mistakes just like anyone else, but I have been paying for them as well like a year. Doesn’t it say anything? Doesn’t it say that I actually love you enough? Doesn’t I deserve a little bit of respect? You have always known what respect means, you always did.  And what I felt was purely disrespected. It’s not because we are boy/girlfriends, because we aren´t. But since we do things so deeply with each other, which makes my love for you to grow every day. I want to keep this; it’s extremely sexy and it overwhelms me; but it doesn’t mean we don’t have feelings. - Because we have, and they are stronger than we think. That little strong thing has been uniting us for too long, and actually we can’t stand a big fight; because our little hearts call for each other for a hug. And our interactions with each other become warmer and warmer, until we lose control of ourselves. And every day, this little feeling which might have been disappearing once in a disappointing moment, grows pretty fast.

I want us to respect each other, because both of us deserve it. I want to share everything with you, as long as you share with me too. And that way, everything becomes just like normal. Before loving you, you were one of my biggest friends. And I wanna keep it. So let’s be fine!

Tuesday, 15 November 2011

'I don't need easy. I just need possible.'
Bethany Hamilton
Hey folks!

I know I haven't been writing. But I really hope to start on track again!

Sunday, 7 August 2011

Saturday, 6 August 2011

O pior é que sou louca por ti.
I blame myself every day. I look into the mirror and all I see is shame and hate of everything I have done to you. I try to make up to you, because I never meant to hurt you. And I try to love you the way I'd love to be loved. I use beautiful words and I will to hear them back. Sometimes I don't and I feel ridiculous. Just like waiting for you to say: I need to see you, I miss you darling.

Friday, 5 August 2011


I know it wasn't supposed to show all my feelings to the world, it was supposed to be something private; something mine. However, mine is something I can't tell from being or not being mine, so, something which is not mine, but someday can be mine, by the willing that I have in my soul - just like you - I'm willing you to become mine. And  one day, we will become one, just from the love that unites us.
I hate having messed with my own life, how stunning and pure our relationship was. Nobody is perfect, and I'm way to be perfect; I don't wanna be that person that is called a perfect girl; because that way, I'll disappoint you. I don't want it to happen again because I already did, and I hate me because of that. So, I want you to love me as I am, with my flaws. But I just need you to forgive me. Because I regret every mistake I have made, every little tear I made you shed. I hate the way you hated me, I hate the way I made you feel. I just hate myself. And I want you to love me just to let you in, each day even more in my heart.
I want to make that hate to disappear, and to build a beautiful relationship from now on; now that I am writing this with lots of love and full of passion.
That beautiful, pure, and loving relationship that we had, can be built every day in order to make her not perfect (because I don't want it to disappoint us) but a great relationship full of passion, respect and love. Something which will be ours by our willing to be with each other. Something that we achieved, just like the happiness of achieving something so real, so pure like you and me. I should say that I love you, but you already know that. I adore you. You are part of my body and my soul, and without you I can't even imagine how my life would be like, because without you, I guess I can't breathe. I want us to be just one. I just need to try. Please. Let's try it, just once, just you and me - and together we can achieve our reality, our happiness, our relationship.

Thursday, 14 July 2011

Wednesday, 13 July 2011

tou quase a acabar os apontamentos de Geografia! Faltam aproximadamente 14 PÁGINAS! 

Li e gostei

"Às vezes mais vale desistir do que insistir, esquecer do que querer, arrumar do que cultivar, anular do que desejar. No ar ficará para sempre a dúvida se fizemos bem, mas pelo menos temos a paz de ter feito aquilo que devia ser feito.Às vezes é preciso mudar o que parece não ter solução, deitar tudo abaixo para voltar a construir do zero, bater com a porta e apanhar o último comboio no derradeiro momento e sem olhar para trás, abrir a janela e mandar tudo borda fora, queimar cartas e fotografias, esquecer a voz e o cheiro, as mãos e a cor da pele, apagar a memória sem medo de a perder para sempre, esquecer tudo, cada momento, cada minuto, cada passo e cada palavra, cada promessa e cada desilusão, atirar com tudo para dentro de uma gaveta e deitar a chave fora.Às vezes é preciso saber renunciar, não aceitar, não pedir nem dar, não aceitar sem participar, sair pela porta da frente sem a fechar, pedir silêncio e paz e sossego, sem dor, sem tristeza e sem medo de partir. E partir para outro mundo, para outro lugar, mesmo quando o que mais queremos é ficar, permanecer, construir, investir, amar. Porque quem parte é quem sabe para onde vai, quem escolhe o seu caminho e mesmo que não haja caminho porque o caminho se faz a andar, a certeza que fizemos bem e que não podia ser de outra maneira. Quem fica, fica a ver, a pensar, a meditar, a lembrar. Até se conformar e um dia então esquecer. "Muda de vida que a vida muda contigo.""
Mariana R.

Sunday, 10 July 2011

j: prima estás linda
m: obrigada primo
j: não, mas a sério... tu assim partes muitos corações
m: ok, obrigada. tenho que ir..
j: partes muitos corações, mas não pode ser qualquer um...
m: está bem
j: ouve o que eu te digo: não pode ser qualquer um.


coldplay - fix you

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And on your face I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And on your face I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Sunday, 12 June 2011

"Não tenho tudo que amo, mas também nada que me ama me tem".

Saturday, 11 June 2011

life is hard
and people make it harder
people regret
so, make them forget

hard is hardest
forget is unforgettable
life is life

Friday, 15 April 2011

Friday, 18 March 2011

Do you wanna save us? So, let's work on it TOGETHER.

Thursday, 17 March 2011

'I just thought that if Dixon would across the country, I wouldn't be able to breath. And I can't breath.' Silver in 90210
'No, I am not fine'
I need to feel you need me as well.
aperto no coração. má disposição. angústia. vómitos. lágrimas. tristeza.

Monday, 14 March 2011

Sunday, 13 March 2011

Dear God,

I am writing you to give me strenght in order to be stronger and to make him to fall in love with me each day even more.
Take care,

Friday, 11 March 2011

I miss how we used to be
That perfect couple
Whom I thought that was back.

Words are oversaid

And Moments shared
Big laughs with no end
For making us the loving couple

I want that to return
But I need you to come home
To fight against everything
And then...
We will be back with no return
I missed her so.

Thursday, 10 March 2011

Sunday, 6 March 2011

Saturday, 5 March 2011

Friday, 4 March 2011

Weeping willow with your tears running down, 
Why do you always weep and frown, Is it 
because he left you one day, Is it because he 
could not stay, On your branches he would 
swing, Do you long for the happiness that they
would bring, He found shelter in your shade, 
He thought his laughter would never fade, 
Weeping willow stop your tears, There is 
something to calm your fears, You think death 
as if you forever part, But I know he'll 
always be in your heart.
In: My girl 
Do not make me fighting alone.
Fight with me...

Monday, 28 February 2011

Saturday, 26 February 2011

Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can live only wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life - Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once - Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.
ever thine
ever mine
ever ours

Ludwig Van Beethoven
I'm begging you to take me back.
I wanted you to come to be with me.
hates studying.

Tuesday, 22 February 2011

Monday, 21 February 2011

Sunday, 20 February 2011

let's make love.
my heart is willing you to come back. my body is so into you. my soul is hollow without you.

Saturday, 19 February 2011

os erros do passado estragam-nos o presente que fazem com que não realizemos um futuro
I felt it was the first kiss, the first time we made up. it felt so real, so perfect. amo-te

Friday, 18 February 2011

"Don’t say what you’re thinking, and don’t be too quick to act on what you think. Be friendly to people but don’t overdo it. Once you’ve tested out your friends and found them trustworthy, hold onto them. But don’t waste your time shaking hands with every new guy you meet. Don’t be quick to pick a fight, but once you’re in one, hold your own. Liste..."
William Shakespeare

Thursday, 17 February 2011

let's show our love. and make it grow more and more. let's make it perfectly and forever.

Tuesday, 15 February 2011

Many were overly worried about the surprises, I was simply wanting him to come back.
'I never really figured how much I liked you, until you were gone.'

Monday, 14 February 2011

you're not my valentine. i wish you were. although... that dinner was the best of my day. 
thank you.

happy valentine's day

a: estou ansiosa por saber qual a surpresa que o m me vai fazer....
mpv: ao menos tens o m... eu apenas gostava de poder dizer que tenho o jlb

Saturday, 12 February 2011

I feel like sleeping next to you, just like yesterday. 
And forever.
mpv: sabes o que me apetecia?
jb: eu consigo esta.comer uma pirâmide de kinder deitada numa cama na praia.
 seems perfect!
'Fazemos o que é preciso quando encontramos o homem da nossa vida. Se ele está mesmo a nossa frente, não o podemos deixar fugir.'
O Fim da Inocência - Francisco Salgueiro
I feel like saying 'I love you'.
My love about you can't change.
Keep doing what you are doing.

Thursday, 10 February 2011

Thursday, 3 February 2011

A noite chora, e a manhã traz esperança
Ainda sinto o teu perfume
Desejo tê-lo para sempre
O nosso amor não necessita de mais lume
É fogo.

A minha felicidade és tu
Pergunto-me quando é que a encontro
Desejo-te todas as noites
Apetece-me dizer-te o quanto te amo

Sentir o teu corpo perto do meu
É como me sentir realizada
Quero-te como quero água num deserto
Porque és tudo para mim,
És o meu amor.

Sei que é difícil.
Mas beija-me, diz que me amas.
Seremos felizes. Eu aqui prometo!


Wednesday, 2 February 2011

'Amo como ama o amor. Não conheço nenhuma outra razão para amar senão amar. Que queres que te diga, além de que te amo, se o que quero dizer-te é que te amo?'
Fernando Pessoa
I'm ill and my only desire is to see you.

Tuesday, 1 February 2011

I hate the world right now.
Even worse, I hate myself and I do know why.
You're so good to me. - I envy your kindness.
I try to show you that I changed, for me and for you.
Yesterday I cried. Today I cry and I will cry until the day I get you.

I keep fighting. I'll get stronger.
I will get you and I will keep fighting for our love.
It's needed to be worked out. Kiss me, and be mine.

I'm in love with you. I want you. Yes, I do!
I love you more than anything else in the world.
And I can't tell it in a word.

I get goose bumps the way you kiss me
My body is over you when you touch it
Please, let's be just us two. - Just let us be.
By: mpv
i do love you.

Sunday, 30 January 2011

Saturday, 29 January 2011

The letter that changed my life

It was absolutely cold when I was near the fireplace during the Christmas Eve. It was snowing out there, and I was home alone. - And it was not what I’ve imagined to be my favourite Christmas Eve, not even a little bit, not even at all.
My siblings and my parents were spending Christmas in my hometown which is Lisbon but since I was little, I’ve thought to spend my Christmas holidays in a snowy part of the world. So, I went to London to spend a different Christmas which I have always dreamt of.
London is a different city, one of my favourite cities of the world. It has always been; even when I hadn’t been there already.  London is a crowd place to be in, but to my mind, there happens everything and we can see every single thing that happens in other over-crowded cities. That day, everything was empty. Shops were closing down; families were at home with their relatives; that over-crowded place was silent, and I was near the fireplace thinking how it would be like if I had stayed at my over-crowded city with my adorable family.
When I was starting to read a book I have brought with me, I noticed there was a letter. I found it really awkward, because it was a new book. The letter was from my ex-boyfriend.
We didn’t fight or anything, we just agreed to be far away from each other some days to think about our lives. However, I had already asked him to come back to me, and it seemed like he didn’t want it so badly as I did, because he wanted to try it very slowly. When I read that letter I got speechless because he knew I would be in London, and in which place. The letter was not as big as I was expecting. It was written: ‘I will spend Christmas time with you, near or far.’
I might confess, I didn’t understand it very clearly, because it wasn’t supposed him to know I wasn’t in Portugal to spend my Christmas alone and everything. That letter has become my life really interesting, which made my life to become happier. He went to be with me in London and we got married. Since this year, we have been travelling every Christmas holiday to London because it’s now the best place in the earth.

By: mpv

Monday, 24 January 2011

Live it up

Live It Up. Don't take your life for granted.


'If you're humble, and you wise, you'll get respect. You learn, you die, you move. You make another step'

Saturday, 22 January 2011

Thursday, 20 January 2011